Tuesday, January 15, 2013

another day

I went to counseling tonigjt and truly enjoyed it again. My focus is finding ways to honor my bmom and bestie. They loves me for me and showed me what love an support is all about. I am thankful for my bestie's friends who have taken me under their wings and help me. Without them this experience would have been so much worse. I am thankful God has sent great people in my life to help me. My bestie took care of me and is with her amazing friends. I miss them and love them so much. i feel them picking me up and carrying me through each day

Monday, January 14, 2013

loss for words

I don't even know where to start. so much as happened. The Thursday before thanksgiving my Bonus Mom passed away. We had no idea and it happened so fast. Linda (her name) was the main cargiver for her sick daughter Michelle who is my best friend. Michelle had Melanoma. she also was the caregiver for Michelle's kids. The day before thanksgiving i was on my way to Bryan to get pets to come back down to help Michelle. On the way up I was in a horrible car accident. My car was wrecked. then a week and a half later my best friend took her last breathe. It was just us when she passed. i had fallen asleep. she had been looking me. it may sound weird. but i know she wanted it that way. there isnt a day that goes by i dont miss them. this is hard. i never imagine life without them. and know im adgusting to it. its hard. i feel really alone at times. they were my strenght and biggest suppoters. i start counseling again and i know i will get through this.