Things keep changing, the earth still turns, the wind still blows rather I am ready for it or night. So here I am blogging about my life the last few weekends. I am really bad about keeping this updated. Doesn't help I do not have a Computer. LOL! Anyways, what do you say we get started? okay hold on to your seat this may be a crazy ride.....
After many weeks of severe back pain and Vicodin, I went to a Neurologist who believes I have Fibromyaglia. For those of you who do not know what that is.It is when your nerves in your body are overly sensitive to pain. Many times the pain isnt has bad or isnt even there. So it helps calm the nerves. Since being put on meds. I feel 100 times better. Still working on getting my strength back. So that is a blessing. It took along time and a few MRIs and doctors. But i am blessed to say I am feeling much better.
Since being in so much pain I was in Bryan for over a month. I missed all your family and friends done here. So this weekend my bonus mom came to get me to bring me down since my car is in the shop. only for me to go to a minute clinic to find out I have strep. not fun! So I sit here typing away at the keyboard while my little sister enjoys my bonus nieces birthday party. I have to say I am so glad they are good friends and love being around each other. I am so blessed and thank God each day that they have that kind of friendship. Kids need friends that can encourage them, help each other and love like a sister or brother. Kid friends that dont judge you like the adult world will.
The last few weeks, have been somewhat crazy, sad and in some ways bringing people closer and teaching people to shut their month when it comes to being judgmental. My best friend is more like the older sister i never had since i was the oldest child in my family. Now that she is sick and has been in the hospital off and on. I miss her and now that i am sick i can not go see her because the last thing i want to do is make her sick when her body is trying to make her health again so she can fight off the cancer. And FYI do yourself a favor and wear protective sunglasses and sunscreen all year around. I don't think you want to battle with skin cancer. So I miss her. I miss the hugs the laughing and for me just being around her. I feel safe when shes there. we don't even have to talk. just being in the room together. I miss the nights of laying in bed just chatting and laughing all night until our stomachs were hurting and we were crying. The last two weeks we have been talking on the phone instead of just texting. I feel it has helped both of us while we cant see each other. I may not be able to see her physically but i feel a lot closer to her. i love hearing her voice and listening to her laugh. makes me smile every time. God has blessed me with not only my best friend but also a sister i never had. She has a fight ahead of her to beat the Melanoma or fight to live as long as she can. Whichever God chooses for her. I may not like the fact that she is having to fight so hard. But i will never leave her side unless God takes me home first. She is my rock and i cant imagine life without her. So I will pray for her and love her each day and do whatever i can to help her fight.
Sometimes it feels like everything going on in my life would make me more depressed then ever. Yet I know God is leading my way and will. Somedays are harder then others. Some days are the best ever. I will not let my depression overcome me. I will do what i can to help others. I prayed about a week ago. for god to use me to serve and encourage others. I have to say he did. I feel closer to him. I know he has and plan and there is a reason for all that is going on. No he did not make this happen he allowed it too because he knows what we can handle and he has a plan. Sometimes its hard for me to see that plan or to wait. But I am trying hard to praise him in the bad as well as the good. I was thinking a few weeks ago, why do we not tell people we are praying for them? It may not be something people do anymore. But that needs to stop. Thats why our world is the way it is. So others out there, dont act one way at church and another at walmart. Show Christ through you. Dont be afraid to tell someone you are praying for them. It just may be the thing someone needs to hear.